Silent screams

Published on Friday, March 5th, 2010

If I am to record the days where everything seems to be against me. Everything I do seems to be wrong. Everything I say seems to offend someone, these 2 months would be it.

I am angry. Any blame I can suggest seems to be only on myself.

I am abnormal, only to be normal again.

An important missing agent that is almost always abroad, only due to circumstances that one cannot control. The only agent that brings me peace.

Sometimes I almost just want to kneel down and scream. But always just before tipping, I stepped back knowing I have to hold. Because I am the only one holding on where everyone else gave up.

Heartache brings no pain. Just helpless silent screams while clinging on to hope.


Effed up

Published on Monday, March 1st, 2010

Being angry with noone else to blame, for the situation only permits that much with absolution, even when you are willing to do anything without consideration, there is nothing you can do.

That is the true meaning of ‘f*cked up’.


Could only be talking about…

Published on Wednesday, January 13th, 2010

First, they do not offer certain important functions.

Then they make the function that is supposed to be there aeons ago and release it as “a new generation”.

And then the public goes WOW!!!!

Oxymoron.

Naive. Provocative. Frustrating. Stymied. Societal stupidity persona personified.


‘How do you live your life?’

Published on Monday, January 4th, 2010

Sometimes I get a curious question whereby I wasn’t able to answer for a long time now. ‘How do I live my life?’. I cannot recall which wise old man asked me this nor how long ago. I have been looking for that particular answer though. Or more like looking out for it rather.

A conversation with one whom I would consider a-buddy-in-short-time-due-to-such-similarities got me my answer. I completely forgot what we were talking about. Unimportant things for sure.

But I do remember saying this: Just stick to my principles and live around it.

No ’societical’ (not a word) constraints. I say and do what I think is right. No desire for material console. Only what I need and a little extra can make me very happy.

All I do is stick to my principles, and live around it.

That’s one for myself.


New year resolution 2010

Published on Thursday, December 31st, 2009

I think I have made my last new year resolution true to my own words. Perhaps too restrictive, but that’s the most I could allow. It wasn’t easy.

So as of today, on with the next!

To give others even more chances as compared to my previous new year resolution.

Lame, yes, but it shall be as lame as it seem to be.


Sharing returns it’s favour.

Published on Tuesday, November 17th, 2009

The posts I write especially  the techie ones are the best memos for myself. I realise I always refer back to my blog whenever I format my Ubuntu partition whenever I do a clean install. Those looooooooong commands are the most used.

Sharing knowledge, indeed, returns that favour. Literally.


Streaming Videos or music from Ubuntu to PS3

Published on Tuesday, November 17th, 2009

It’s easy as pie!

No it’s easier than making pie!

It’s like just eating pie!

Okay, back to topic already =x

To stream music or videos from Ubuntu to PS3, just install mediatomb. There is no configurations required and just works.

The only thing you have to do after installation is to use the web admin to add the files that you want to share as a stream.

Yes, shared. The stream can be accessed to anyone in the network. Once you are done, with your PS3 connected to the network, just look under videos.


I guess that’s why they have flavours of *nix

Published on Thursday, November 12th, 2009

I am a supporter, enthusiast and propagator of Ubuntu if you can call it that.

Since Dapper, I have been requesting CDs from the Ubuntu site and they ship it for free at every major release. And so I have been spreading the word about Ubuntu to my friends and colleagues and show them how viable, secure, fast … basically much it r0x!

The requested CDs are distributed to my friends and colleague. The CDs come with cool Ubuntu theme, Ubuntu stickers and Ubuntu CD paper covers. “All these for free” as I spread it and give it away. I actually convinced quite a few of my friends and colleagues to start using Ubuntu. Much were impressed. And they continue on to tell their friends to try it as they did.

Now, it seems that Ubuntu.com has deemed that I have “already received CDs of several previous Ubuntu releases” and denied my request. “Already too many shipments” as the title states. The page suggested I download it. Well, I always use the downloaded version for my own use thank you very much. How do I tell them  “I am trying to distribute your CDs because they look much more impressive and convincing than my fugly cheap reflective, undesigned CD”. They did encourage me to contribute to Ubuntu so I am eligible to get more CDs. Well, I guess I didn’t do a bit of that at all.

I still like Ubuntu and support it’s cause. I’m just not going to do anymore things that doesn’t contribute to Ubuntu obviously.

I would have set the post title as “End of my cool Ubuntu CDs for distribution”, but who would care anyway.


Android development on Ubuntu (No AVD)

Published on Monday, November 9th, 2009

I had finally started getting myself used to Android development concepts, the UI, and such. ‘android-sdk_r3-linux.tgz’ was what I downloaded from the Android site.

At the time of writing, somehow, there seems to be a bug after running tools/android.sh’. I wasn’t able to get the package list using the default URL which was using SSL. So I had to go under settings to force it to use pure HTTP. The problem lies here: the Save & Apply button in there just wouldn’t work as I clicked it. It seems stuck the moment I did; a sad button remaining depressed.

Being more of a keyboard shortcuts person, I tried hitting the Enter key and I was in business again. The same problem in the Available Packages section’s Install Selected button. Just hit that Enter key after clicking the button. It werrrrrrrrrrrrksssss!

Hope this helps any unlikely passerby in here ;)


Where is the grey area?

Published on Thursday, November 5th, 2009

A person who is rather extreme. Either a yes or a no. There are barely maybes when it comes to choices. I always tell others, being indecisive can literally kill a person.

It’s like doing a multiple choice question on the exams. If you know the answer, freaking choose it and move on. But that is the easy part.

If you do not know the answer to the question, but the choices are already laid out to you, freaking choose one that is the most logical to you and move on. You might get it right.

If you do not choose any, then it’s certain doom.

In life, the difference of a second could decide the fate of another person. Just that very existence of probability is worth a consideration.

Keeping this in mind, and practising as if it’s a religion, I unconciously became “a very extreme person”.

Some actually believe one can have no grey areas and, as though caringly try to convince me grey areas are important. Idiocity is them when to them it’s me.

Of course there are grey areas in life or everyone would be speaking in binaries. But I hate the fact that they are trying to preach me something of which I consider is common knowledge. Or is there any?

Within my own context, I decide when grey areas apply. So the world revolves around me. Not more or less the way it revolves around them.

I just hope that the wires to decide on grey areas does not disconnect from my brains as greys are much less used. Perhaps in an attempt to be reminded, that is my favourite colour.

Ironically in pictures, it is much more definitive than black and white.