He did me a huge favour back in Aussie and did it even when he was sick. Did so by asking another friend for a favour. (I guess that makes me owe 2 of them.)

Arthur: *sms* “Could you help me over at the RC? Just play some music for an event.”
Me: *sms* “WTF?! What’s that about?”
(I eventually agreed without much more considerations since I owe him ><. Furthermore, could be fun.)
Arthur: *sms* “I wouldn’t be there.”
Me: *sms* “WTFFFF, ok fine! You owe me a cuppa! No, two! Where would you be then?”
Arthur: *sms* “Malaysia.”
Me: *sms* “WTFFFFFFFFFFFFF?!?! Ok fine!”
*Goes to his home to collect the cds for the event*
Me: “So what do I really do there?”
Arthur: “I don’t know, I have never done it.”
Me: “OMGWTFBBQ What?!” (A lil more ‘friendly’ curses)
*Goes to event on the day*
MC: “Arthur’s mum is not here today.”

Humbly, I think I don’t owe you any more my king.

Quest rewards:
- Mysterious goody bag of stuff suspected to be bread. (~$1.50)
- 2 Cups of expensive coffee with the king. ($8)
- A chance to report to the king “I am afraid all is lost” and quit knighthood when he asked how it went. (priceless)

I know of friends who are of this type. Not blindly submerged into societal views and thinking. They watch, think and do things they way they think they should. Not anything like ‘this is the “in” thing right now, get it!” or be worried about what others (society) might think about them. They are immune to ‘poison’.

These people comes up with the most intriguing aspects of anything at all. They somehow, automatically gain respect from others just simply by portraying this side of them; respected by people who are easily and blindly submerged into ’societal values’(could one even call it a value?).

Sadly, because of the way the world turns around society, they have a ’switch’ whereby they, I would say, temporarily comply with society to get what they want and then switch it off. Because they, perhaps subconsciously, know that it is their character that makes them. They just kept it in for a bit. They only show their true self when they find those of that same league or higher. Enjoying the aspects of the world the way it truly should have been.

Simply weird or of another league? Society says weird. I say it is best it stays that way. This league is out of reach.

“You reputation is what you are perceived to be. Your character is what you really are.”

Some people may seem to have good reputation and be perceived to be nice and good. But I learned that it really takes time to figure out their characters. And by far, most seems to have good reputations, but unfortunately, time almost always tell otherwise.

In my profession, I have all the tools I need, I realise I am incomparable to him. I shall keep this as a reminder to myself. I have the tools and knowledge to make this world, a better place.

Do something meaningful before I die even if it makes the world better by just a little bit. That in itself, is worth dying for.

But, advice is free. They can say what they want. They can think what they think it is. But who really knows exactly what happened? Or exactly what it is? They didn’t need to care what happens next.

It is wise to take their advice?

What if the advice we take worsens the situation, are they going to apologise and you have to think “yeah he/she did it out of goodwill”. And then it ends at that? Leaving the mess for you to clean up yourself.

What advice we take, we are responsible for it ourselves in the end.

Sometimes we are oblivious to what we really did. We tend to focus on what wrong others did. But ultimately, and likely the fault lies in the wrong advice we take. And out of pride, we hold on to it, making it become what we thought is right. No matter the consequences. No matter where it came from in the first place.

Back and forth I have been walking, between crossing over to my thoughts, and taking a step back laying my pride on the floor and looking at things. A beautiful perspective I would say to a pride-less view.

I can finally say, yes, this is my own perspective, and it is right. Taking no advice from others.

-Just a note to myself-

Only now do I understand what you really mean my dear. I’m just glad I understood before I decided on anything.

Thanks for believing in me. And telling me the strength that people love about me. It is really appreciated though untold.

Zhihao, you were right, it really tells me whether this is really worth it. The answer proved to be correctly wrong. Yes I am doing it. Once again, you were right.

Bee, thanks for ears, heart and memory. Though we seem to always miss the timings by just a bit all the time. You caught me in my worst of days. That in itself is w00t!

Tuco, thanks for those “How ya been mate?” and “phish should really ditch that RL thing…”. Hahaha, perks me up! You and bee have have a selfless air that couldn’t be beaten. Bunk in next you you guys when I get the chance! =D

Last but definitely not least, Xen, thanks for those creatively logical dissections on the case. It helped alot in my decisions. How I wish I’m still sitting beside you at work and you can keep a lookout for me and all these wouldn’t have happened. Thanks for being my “ultimate” skill.

I am humbly enlightened.

As the usual, “Friends are to die for. Any less can go and die.” I have mustered all the chances I can give. But reluctantly, I have to add one to the tombstone right at the top for a first.

Like the prayers, I wish those who are(is) gone would come back. But that decision is not mine to make. It is theirs. I do not have a moat around my castle. As if peering through an entrance that leads to a straight path beyond one can see, the castle gates are opened and will remain so.

I shall only feed on hope.

I thank the person whose name, etched on the tombstone, for giving me enough courage and reason to make it so.

Selflessness hurts but makes one happy. Selfishness gave courage and reason to hurt. Irony.

To everyone I mentioned here, I am deeply touched by the support. Phish is officially back; and stronger.

Bee: No way phishes fall. They are in the water! =D /moo

Arthur my king, your knight is once again available for service.

But even when the wielder falls, the shield continues to protect the wielder. For it is a diamond shield to the end as long as the wielder holds on to it in the fall.

That is the true meaning of ‘f*cked up’.